Friday, October 31, 2014

Book Review: Dad is Fat by Jim Gaffigan

Dad Is Fat

I received this book for free from Blogging for Books for this review.

I finally received my copy of Dad is Fat by Jim Gaffigan and it is laugh out loud funny.  Gaffigan is such a funny guy, and hearing about his large family in their teeny-tiny apartment is hilarious.  He's constantly giving props to his wife for being so wonderful, but you still kind of get the feeling that sometimes he's the dad that pretends to sleep so he doesn't have to get up and change the kid.

The only part that annoyed me was, within his complaining about their tiny apartment (and how you buying this book is helping him get a bigger place for his family to live) he talks about the vacations they take.  While booking hotels.  And staying in a giant tour bus.  That's great--but maybe you could take some of that crazy vacation money and apply it toward a bigger apartment?  Just sayin'.

Overall a very funny, quick read I think anyone with kids will like.

Legwarmers--80's Style

My boss wanted to be 80's girl (Totally Awesome) for Halloween.  You don't understand--my boss LOVES Halloween.  She says it's the best day of the year. 

So she chose her costume, but she didn't know where to get legwarmers.  Hark:  Here are some knitting skills, a free pattern I found on Ravelry, and some Red Heart acrylic in Dayglow to set the mood. 

These are my youngest daughter's feet.  Complete with cut and evidently smiley face drawn on.

I'm so glad I made them, and honestly, I am in love with the yarn color.  And the happiness they brought my boss to tie in her costume (with neon green socks) made it all worth it.

I'm Tired.

I'm just plain worn down.  Like to the point where I don't know why I do anything I do.  And my husband doesn't know why I do anything I do, but if I don't do it, it doesn't get done.

I'm tired of never feeling good enough.

I'm tired of always caring.

I'm tired of always saying yes.

I'm tired of worrying about money.

I'm tired of constantly doing for my kids, who don't appreciate it anyway.  But the opposite of this is feeling like a bad mom who will have kids in therapy saying their mother never cared about them if I don't do it.

I'm tired of looking in the mirror and seeing that I'm fat (although it's not what everyone else sees.  At least they don't say it.  That's something.)

I'm tired of being the person to worry about Halloween costumes, carving pumpkins, Thanksgiving dinner, Christmas presents, birthday parties, etc etc etc and there is never anyone that helps me with them.  If I didn't do them, they wouldn't get done, and that's not ok.  Are there things I can let go and not worry about?  Sure.  But some things, you just can't.

I'm tired of being screwed over by people because it's not "professional" to say anything.  No, I don't want to teach 2 extra people after we signed a contract because you said, "Hope it's ok..."  It's not ok.  But I don't say that.

I'm tired of my professor for my one class this semester who can't *quite* give me full marks.  It always has to be .25 or .5 less than full marks.  Because I am just not. that. good.

I'm tired of my husband telling me to change, and stop worrying, and WTF is the matter with me, and why won't I love him, and why do I have to be so negative, and what if it did that and....and....and....

I'm tired of trying so damn hard, and it's never enough.  I sewed my daughter's Halloween costume--what she wanted to be--and when she didn't get as many compliments as her brother's costume (he went as jellybeans--2 garbage bags, $6 worth of balloons, tape and a Jelly Belly label on the front) she stomped her foot and had a fit. 

I'm tired of seeing other people so joyful, and I can't get there.  And when I do I feel like something is wrong with me, or I am waiting for the next thing to come along and ruin it.

I'm tired of hearing "I'll take care of it" or "I'll come up with something" and I know it's lies.  I'm tired of things being broken-cars, dishwashers, the friggin air conditioning--and that's ok that we live with that broken.  That's ok that we go without.

I'm tired of things being the way they are.  And if I improve and things around me don't, what's the point?

Saturday, August 2, 2014

Just for fun-Scarves

Thought I'd just post a fun video today I found on YouTube...great ways to tie a scarf.  The visual aid sure comes in handier than written instructions for me!

Monday, July 28, 2014

Friends Near and Far

I have so many friends having a hard time right now.  Monumentally hard times.  I can't imagine having my kid go through 2 brain surgeries in 2 weeks, plus contracting meningitis.  One of my best friends is going through that right now, and my heart just aches for her.  I try to make her smile when I can, and let her know how much I care about her.  Anyone reading this, if you can pray to whatever deity you choose, or just think good thoughts about her son Gabriel (he's 9), I'd really appreciate it.  Their family has been through so much, I don't think they can bear anymore.   I wish I were there to just sit with Jess and hold her hand.

I have other friends who are struggling with their small business.  I wish I could go to everyone's house in the city and force them to buy local and not go to Walmart for one week.  Their good people, and it shouldn't be this hard.

I got to spend 5 hours in pain on Saturday night/Sunday morning until I finally broke down and went to the ER.  It wasn't a heart attack, so that's good.  They think it might be my gall bladder.  Although now I can't get in to see a doctor until August 7th.  They gave me a prescription for Vicodin and I laughed.  I was sure I'd get in to see my doctor today or tomorrow, not the end of the week.  If I have pain like I did when I went into the ER, I'll have to take the damn Vicodin.  Some of the worst pain I've had in my life, and I have had 3 kids.

Its just like when it rains, it pours.

So I am going to bake bread.  It's a beautiful, cool day (not much like the end of July usually is).  I think baking bread will be comforting.  And knitting.  That's what I've got to do today.

Friday, July 18, 2014

Suddenly...July Overextended

So July started out as another month of summer.  Beautiful not-terribly-hot weather (but it's coming....)

I finished up one test knit and saw a test knit for a lovely shawl.  I knew I had yarn that would work, so I said SURE!  It's 280 picking up and knitting the edge.  Easy 4 row repeat pattern.  Not due until the end of the month.  Easy peasy.

Only I keep slipping stitches by accident off the end of the needle.  The first time--no life line, and I lost 40+ rows of work.  Now I have a life line, and I've probably lost 80 rows I've knit on top of those 40.  I feel like I'm taking 1 step forward and 2 steps back!

Then Random House in their Blogging for Books program gave me an offer I couldn't refuse.  The entire set of Taylor Steven's mystery novels.  For free.  As long as I can read the latest book The Catch and review it by July 25th.  Sure, I can do that...only I prefer to read my books in order, so if I don't start at the first one, I am breaking my rules.  But I don't think I can read them all and do the shawl by the end of the month.

Add to this the job search, the lack of money, the fear of having to move, my friend going through hell as her son has brain surgery and she's in Florida (and I'm not) and a crushing depression I can feel creeping in and all of the sudden the stress level of the easy going July is brutal.

Friday, July 11, 2014 far

So, summer is in full swing here.  Our first stop was the Timber Rattlers stadium for Star Wars night.  Fortunately, I was "on the ball" (See what I did there?) this year and got online at the proper time on March 1st when tickets went on sale, so I could get our totally awesome seats behind home plate.  The kids had fun, and the evening ended with a light saber battle in the yard.  The only downside was this year there didn't seem to be many Star Wars people there.  No Princess Leia, or Darth Vader.  Just a couple Stormtroopers.
He needs to learn to keep his tongue in his mouth!

Awesome seats!

Light Saber battle after the game!

Next stop: Bay Beach.  It was raining the day we went, so we ended up with some soaked bottoms getting on the rides.  But it held off the crowds until the rain ended around noon, so we had a good time riding things multiple times. I commented to the person running the ferris wheel that this was the only time in the history of going there that we didn't have to wait in line.
Great picture right?  Child #3 is pouting to the left.

We had a mostly relaxing day the 4th of July (my parents are fighting, so our plans were up in the air.  We usually spend the 4th with them, so this year was awkward).  We went over at dusk to go to Roosevelt School and watch Neenah's fireworks from there.  I almost went to Jefferson this year;  good call going with our "usual".  Jefferson's fireworks were cancelled because of high winds.  Neenah's display was great!

Finally to wrap up, we went to Bookworm Gardens in Sheboygan last weekend.  It was an amazing place that was not only a gardens, but one based on children's books.  All of us had a great time there, and we think every community should have a gem like this.

Three beautiful kids in Papa Bear's chair.

So what's still on tap?  Hopefully more fun-filled days with or without plans, just being a family.  Trying to keep the worry out (I worry enough for everyone), work in our garden, swim in the pool, read books, play games and work on being happy.  That sounds like a good plan for the rest of the summer!