Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Brushes by Night

So tonight I am going to a painting class, to paint a picture (not paint a wall). Who knew something so simple can cause so much anxiety.

It's $20. It's not a big deal. It's something I've always wanted to do. But here's where I am in my mind:
*It's going to suck. I can't paint.
*I don't even know what door to go in. What if I go in the wrong door and get yelled at?
*What if I'm surrounded by bitches who all know each other and won't talk to me? This will make my loneliness worse.
*I should be home cleaning. My kids won't clean while I'm gone. They're not as good as other people's kids.
*I am literally watching Bob Ross videos to psych myself up.

Seriously, I already know the flipside:
*What if it's great?
*What of you learn something new?
*What if you meet nice people to talk to?

It's just hard for me to think that way. Nothing good seems to happen. And when it does, it comes with caveats that stop it from being all it should.

Let's face it, I shouldn't be terrified about an art class. It's fucked up. But it just reinforces everything I see wrong with me. I don't do anything right. And nobody cares. And is that good, or bad?

Monday, January 9, 2017

New Year Knitting

It's nice to see that 2017 has already been more productive knitwise than 2016. One of my favorite knitters to follow on Facebook asked what our favorite FO was of 2016, and I didn't have one. I didn't finish many. The ones I did, were quick and acrylic-y.

I am proud to say I have already finished 2 items of knitted goodness, and I am working on my 3rd. And it's January 9th!  So that is Rockstar progress. To be completely transparent, both were test knits--so I had a deadline to get them done.  But I did it, by Good Golly!

Prettiness!


The first one is on the way to Thora, so just in case she checks, I'm not going to post it here. But the second one was an awesome cowl from Jesseknits. I am not a cowl-wearing folk (I probably should be, but I feel like I'm being choked). I knit this one in Kraemer Perfection (the color is Peacock).

One thing that makes me sad in terms of my knitting life is that since I moved, I don't have access to my favorite LYS. I've gained closer access to Herrschners, which is not a bad thing, but it's not the same. I finally found an LYS--a bit of a drive, but not too bad. Knitwise Yarn and Fiber Arts Gallery is in Nekoosa, and is run by Jane, who is awesome. The only downside is that I love Cascade 220, and she is no longer carrying Cascade. I started a scarf for my piano teacher, and grabbed Naturespun instead (which is also one of my favorites) but it's hard to adjust.

So that's what I have so far today. Hoping with more fiber goodness and books and less Facebook I will be updating more. I am actually taking a painting class tomorrow night through Park&Rec, so wish me luck!

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

The fruits of labor

Cucumbers!
Peppers!
So, fortunately for me, I have 2 community garden plots here at work. The wet beginning of summer was rough on my little cucumber plants, and their stalks are white and cut open. My boss thought maybe I had cutter worms. But today--YAY--I spotted cucumbers. AND zucchini on my big plant. Hooray!
Zucchini!

I also have some peppers and tomatoes. So all is well, so far!







Tomatoes!
























House news: Still no house news except pushed back and pushed back. We just pushed it another week. But our mortgage guy says we're "real close now". I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop, and all this aggravation was for nothing.

Speaking of aggravation: I have mothers acting like children. I have a MIL who guilt trips my kids when they don't want to stay at her house. I have MY mother who yells at my youngest daughter (who, as you know, is a handful) and then tells her to tell me to text her. While I was at work. That was IT! I said to my 10 year old that grandma damn well knows my number, and she knows how to text. And I am not dealing with this at work.

Knitting news: Working on my stranded sock. Also working on the amulet shawl from the Shawl society.  I am so excited to get to the bead part. But I'm not there yet--lots of back and forth knitting the same two rows to go (which is actually just what I need right now).

Amulet Shawl



 So that's my life here.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

And life goes on...

Sometimes you find yourself in places you never thought you'd find yourself. Say...like back at your mom and dad's house?

Our first date for our closing was May 13th. Then it was May 31st. Then June 10th. Then June 17th. Then June 30th.  FINALLY, the painting was complete, the FHA inspection was passed and we were ready to go.  And then....


Then Quicken Loans threw us for a loop. If I can say one thing that anyone listens to, it is PLEASE DON'T GO THROUGH QUICKEN LOANS FOR ANYTHING.

They were stringing us along for a lot of things...asking for the same documents over and over again. My friend gave us some money, and they wanted the gift statement. And her bank statements. And her other bank statements. And then a letter that we drafted saying the nature of our close relationship and why she would give us this money. Just ridiculousness.

Then they pulled Brian's credit report again (Because the "process was taking so long"), and his score had gone down. Because we had been using the credit cards and leaving money in the checking account, like they told us to do.  When Brian said, "Well, it went down because of usage. I can pay down the balance, and the score will go back up." the response was "We're not credit counselors". When Brian asked if they ever use common sense, the response was, "I've been in the business for 11 years, and I've never been allowed to use common sense."

We ended up calling HUD to have them call Quicken to get us out of our loan, mostly because we felt like they were stringing us along to make us pay fees. Within an hour of our call to HUD, Quicken called to say they were "Not continuing with the loan".  We went online and found story after story just like ours.

In the meantime, we had to be out of our rented house.  So we moved everything we own into storage.  We are staying with our parents and commuting back and forth to work-no small feat, as my job is 2 hours from there.  BUT:

We are hoping it's temporary, as our realtor "knows a guy" who has started the FHA loan process. Fortunately our appraisals/inspections are maintained in the government database (See? Not all government databases=unmarked helicopters), but the bad news is it probably won't be until July 15th with the July  4th holiday in there.

So I am trying not to lose my crap, wondering when that is going to happen, and being really grateful for my desk at work and my little plots of garden, because they are mine.

TL;DR=Quicken sucks. We lost our financing and are nomadic, but we have new financing and hopefully will be in our house by July 15th.

Anyway, here is a flower from the garden at my hopefully-soon-to-be-mine house to make you happy:


I am knitting, sort of. I will take a picture of the sock I am test knitting when I get home and get it up here. I also have some DELICIOUS looking yarn from Jesseknits to start a MKAL, sock knitting style. So excited about this, but it's a surprise, so I can't show you pretties yet (Soon!)

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Update

OK, so I haven't written in a while, and I wanted to make sure to do a small update. I have been (get this...) CROCHETING!  And it's frustrating.  I am trying to make this:

Cute crochet jellyfish, FREE pattern! | www.1dogwoof.com

Absolutely adorable, right?  I even figured out the magic circle (sort of...anyway, it works). But I can't seem to get the counting right. I keep ending up with one extra. I might just do the tails first, because I have attempted the head 4 times now and it just isn't coming out right.

We are in a holding pattern on the house, and we are stuck here with our terrible landlord. At least until June 19th, when we can't be here anymore. The original closing date was May 13th. Then May 31st. Then June 10th. Now "On or before" June 30th. Let's just say I kind of lost my crap on the latest addendum to the closing. I made the selling realtor cry. Which was not exactly what I wanted, but I needed someone to show me that they gave a crap that I'm terrified I'm going to be homeless.  The house has all the electricity on, and nothing is leaking as far as we know. But the house needs to be painted, and of course it's been raining for weeks. And when it's not raining, there's no painting going on.  So frustration and stress seems to be the story of my life.

In good news, Emily and Nick are done with school today, Anna graduated last Friday (although she still has work to do this summer to finish up):





and I am only working 3 days a week during the summer.  I am also coming up with cool stuff to do in the fall with the students, so I am hoping to generate some "job security" traffic into the library.

I'm also still plugging along on the Piece of Cake sock. Still a single.  

I picked up some patterns and some cool plaid fabric from Hancock (RIP--I'm going to miss that place SO much) to make some shorts. I'm hoping they turn out great, so I can just whip out a bunch of pairs.

So I'm hoping to have some great updates after we move, and maybe a new house renovation blog as well. (So I am not clogging up my sometimes knitting/sometimes family blog here.).

Happy beginning of summer!

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Business Trip? You Betcha!

So one of the new duties in my position description is to do professional development. The very first few days I started working at UWMWC, WiLs put out a call for the first "Good WiLs Ambassador" to attend the Midwest Interlibrary Loan Conference in Dubuque, Iowa. I was fortunate enough to have the chosen essay, and got to attend the conference.

Dubuque is almost a 4 hour drive, so by the time I got to the hotel, I wasn't up for sight seeing. I also chose to go by myself. A) Brian hates ILL, and pretty much everything and everyone that has anything to do with it and B) I thought about a night to myself in a hotel room with the TV, my knitting and some wine and REALLY decided driving by myself was worth the peace and quiet.

After a lovely evening, it was time to attend the conference. It was very strange that the person at the check in desk had already heard of me, knew I had to do a "report" back, and told me that I shouldn't make it boring.


Haha! I did learn some useful stuff, met some fun people (most of them from Iowa) and got to see the beautiful campus of Loras College.


And just as I was walking out at the end, I put my car into reverse and it's snowing.  Then I pull out of the parking lot and it's sleeting--in sheets, like rain!  On the way home I ran into some white-out making snow. But what can I expect on April 8th in Wisconsin?

House news: Still moving right along. They are doing the loan underwriting and we are waiting for the appraisal. Considering we are supposed to close May 13th (and we have to be out of our house here by June 5th) I'd really feel more comfortable with some progress.

So I'm working on a shawl (the one I bought from Rhinebeck), still working on my cousin's slippers, turning the heel on my Cakewalk socks and tonight after hearing a suggestion from a FB friend Lisa, I started a temperature afghan in crochet.  Every day you do 1-3 rows based on the temperature following a color key. I did find a color key here and here, but I changed it up a bit, mostly because I had Royal blue in my stash, today was 35 degrees, thus the 30's will be Royal blue ;)

My other news is that I was fortunate enough to go with my friend Genelle to see Bernie Sanders!
Our best chance!
Tim Robbins was there to give a speech imploring our fellow Dems to support Bernie
Shawshank!

...and I got to shake Bernie's hand on the way out. They were soft and doughy, but not wet. LOL  Last Tuesday I cast my vote for him, and he won Wisconsin, taking all but one county. Emily posed with her super cool shirt I picked up for her:
So I think that's all the news for now. Tomorrow is very exciting, because I pick up my order from The Fruit Club for fresh pineapples! I also get to have a monitor meeting with Autumn and Mandy, so it should be fun. :)

Friday, March 11, 2016

Why I love Fridays

Most people love Fridays, because it signifies the end of the work week. Fortunately for me, I don't work on Fridays-So Thursday is the end of my work week.

I love Fridays because I get to stay home. Even if it's a day of scrubbing stove tops, washing dishes and clothes, vacuuming: I am still not at work. Anna is usually here on Fridays to keep me company (she works from home on Thursdays and Fridays). But she's out for a walk, so all is quiet right now.

I love this particular Friday because my pork roast smells awfully good in my crock pot.



I used my crock pot all the time when I was a SAHM, and always got to smell my meal throughout the day. Coming home from work and smelling that dinner is done is awesome, but not quite as good as your meal cooking while you are doing other productive things at home.

I love this Friday because it is warm. My phone says 52 degrees on the way to a high of 59 today. It's sunny and beautiful. This is especially meaningful since our furnace went out 2 nights ago. Our landlord (Yes, we are still renting. We have to come up with about $7000 to buy a house, so if anyone has a couple grand laying around they aren't using, please let me know) sent a guy over yesterday, who had to "order the part" would "see us tomorrow" and "at least it's not 20 below". Yes, but 25 overnight with frost on the ground make for a cold house. Walmart had heaters on clearance for $15
My house has 2 of these now. Probably good to have some just in case anyway.

, and my landlord's wife brought over 3 more (including 2 of the oil radiator looking ones that I was hoping our Walmart had, and doesn't)
The landlord contribution.

so we were in good shape last night and this morning. And now the doors and windows that don't have plastic wrap on them are open. Welcome to Wisconsin!

Still working on various knitting projects. I think I will knit a pretty dishcloth for my tea swap partner. I was very excited to be in the spring swap, but I messed up and didn't fill the form in on time (even though I posted to the forum in time. Such a bummer.) so I have the card swap and tea swap again this month. It's probably a good thing, as it's so hard to knit something for someone to wear when A)You don't know the person and B)They might hate it and not appreciate it, and I hate that more than anything.

So, off to do another load of laundry. Then I'm going to peruse my cotton yarn and see what I can come up with. And time to get Nick in about an hour and a half.

Hoping you are having as lovely a Friday as I am :)